So last night I had a conversation with the members of my spiritual development group about expectation. I am currently in seminary school and my dean asked me what was my expectation concerning the class. What did I expect to get out of the class? My answer was I have no expectations. I’m open to whatever I am to experience there and I have no predetermined beliefs of what will happen. I shared my answer with the group and my spiritual leader was not pleased. He stated that I had to have an expectation or there was no reason to attend the classes.
Well, I’m attending these classes because that’s what God directed me to do. I have been told on many different occasions by several different people, God has placed purpose on my life and it involves ministry. At first I didn’t understand what that meant but I do now. I was very reluctant to accept that responsibility but I do accept it now. I am obedient and following the path towards my purpose that God has laid out before me. I explained to the group that I don’t see myself in the role that God is leading me and that they have seen me in.
One of my class members asked me, ” When you signed up to become a police officer, what did you expect?” My answer was that I expected a paycheck and benefits because that is what came along with the job. I get the feeling that once again I missed the vision placed before me when I accepted that job. I didn’t know what being a police officer held for me but I was open and went in and did my job. I stayed for 22 years and then I retired.
Words are important to me. I believe that words have power so I work hard to be careful with my words. When I say that I have no expectations at this point while going through these classes. I am not attempting to diminish the value of the experience. I am not attempting to curse my experience. I am honest when I say that I do not see the same vision that everyone else in my group sees.
Maybe I shouldn’t see it now. Maybe I should remain open to all that these classes and school has to offer me for the next two years. My spiritual leader informed me that Spirit said that I am not attached to the outcome. What if I shouldn’t be attached to the outcome right now. I trust God and I know that anything he leads me to he will lead me through. Maybe the vision that others see carries too much responsibility for me to bear at this time. There may be some issues that still require me to work out before that veil is lifted.
I share this because there are many of us who are told that we should do this or that we should do that. Some of us are aware of the thing that God has placed inside of us but we are not always ready to see that vision that God has for our life. Maybe you shouldn’t see that vision yet. It could be that God wishes to see how much you trust God and how obedient you are willing to be. I don’t see the vision but I am walking the path because I trust God and I know that God will only lead me into situations for my highest good and that glorify God. So don’t ignore God when he sends messages to you through others or when he whispers in your ears. God doesn’t always reveal his purpose but you can believe that if you are obedient you will know exactly what to do when the time is right. Trust God and be obedient.
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